Last week was bitter sweet.
I sold my cows. It's sad because I miss them, it seems empty here, and I keep feeling like there's something I need to do, but I know it's just missing them.
But it's also good, because they went to a family with over a hundred acres outside of Fredricksburg and I know they will have access to lots of pasture, I know they are happy... and they went together, that was non negotiable.
There have been many, many times when I felt it was unfair to them to not have pasture, I mean that's what cows are made to do, graze.... and I just don't have the room here for them..
I do believe they were happy here, but still... they are cows and they will be happy there too, they will adapt.
For myself, I needed freedom..
My mother is going to be 85 years old this January and I want to have the freedom to see her as much as I can... and the only way to get freedom was to rehome the girls.
I believe in the old days it was easier, because chances were your neighbors were in the same situation,
and were willing to help each other out, they knew how to care for each others animals...
Today it just isn't like that, it's nearly impossible to get away ...
So for now it will be empty, and I will remember the animals are better off..
I will always remember how special it was to have them, although it was hard work I learned so much from them.. I can't even write this without tearing up...they helped me grow and appreciate things I really never thought about before...I honestly never really had thought about how much we humans rely on animals for our very lives.. they give so generously, they ask for so little in return.. and they are so gentle..
Maybe my path will come back to having cows again or some other dairy animal but for now I will take some time and just see where I go.
I will enjoy my freedom spend time with my loved ones, and see what awaits around the bend.